03.08.12...

March 8-Dreams

I have a few dreams for my life and unfortunately, I think that's all they will ever be...dreams.
I'm not much of a go getter. I can't sell myself and I have no confidence.
I will think I'm good at something, such as singing, gardening, photography, drawing, and then I see someone else do the same thing way better, their voice will be clear, their garden weed free, their photos stunning and their drawing, lifelike. Usually that makes me give up, but lately I've been thinking about my insecurities a bit differently. Lately, if someone is better than me, I'm choosing to believe that they are just different from me, not better. This is quite hard for me to do. Little by little, the older I get, the less bothered I am by others' perfection. I know I am not perfect, and never will be, but I believe I can be better, and if I can be better, maybe I can get some confidence, and if I get some confidence, maybe I can sell myself. If I can sell myself, I can realize one of my dreams. That dream would be to commission my drawings, both the pencil portraits and the name drawings. I have sold a fair amount, but I would like it to be regular. Maybe that's what I can do when I retire from the hospital (which will be sooner than I can believe).
This is a sample of my dream.
You can see other samples here.

No words needed...

Little Bit…

I put the drawing of Annie on hold for a bit so I could complete a Christmas present for Andy of his favorite kitty, Little Bit. I had a tough time with his right front leg and shoulder. It pretty much looks like the picture I took, but there is still something wrong that I just couldn’t fix. I’m sorry Andy, but at least you have a drawing of Bitty now. I hope you like it…  

Annie continued…

I’ve been working on the portrait of Annie. It’s coming along fine. The actual drawing looks so much better than the picture I took of it. I really have to figure out how get my drawings to photograph well. Here is the continuation… 

Annie…

I started a portrait of my crazy collie, Annie Belle awhile ago, quite awhile ago actually, geez, Spring? I got a little busy with moving Andy and Kira way too many miles away from me, and then there was yard work and then a patio to finish. Now that we’ve had our first snow of the season, I’m done with the outdoor work and can start on the inside work. We’ll be kept busy all winter working on the basement, I’m sure. I can’t do anything in the basement until David gets the bathroom settled, then I will put up beadboard, tile the bath surround and the floor. In the meantime, I can do what ever I want!!! Yippee!!!!

I want to draw! Annie Belle is coming out from between the pages of my drawing pad, where she has been living for the past several months, and onto my drawing board. I’ll be watching ‘Fringe’ for the finishing of this portrait. Hopefully I won’t get too far into the season before I’m finished. This is my work in progress…  

I have quite a bit more to do, but I think it’s coming along pretty well, and I’m happy with it so far.

Viktor…

Happy Birthday Bugs, I hope your 25th year is Great!!

I know this is horribly late, I did have a really good start on it when you were here for your birthday. I’ve been working on the patio all my free time, and I’ve put my drawing on the back burner. But, I kept at it and I hope you like it!!

I love you!

 

Pencil portraits…

These are three drawings I did in the past for my sister of four of her dogs. She tends to be just a tad bit partial to English Springer Spaniels.

Once again I have to say that I’m very disappointed with how the pictures turned out.  I removed the glass this time, but I didn’t have enough light and the camera’s flash just left a bright, shiny blotch, and I don’t have a handheld flash.  They looked just fine in the camera’s picture viewer. I guess I’ve learned another lesson today.

Portraits in Pencil…

I finished a drawing of a dog a few days ago and decided to take a picture of it. I always takes pictures of my name drawings and why not the portraits too. I found a few others that I had and took pictures of them too, although I was too lazy to take them out of the frame, you will see a glare on each one that was framed. I will retake those pictures, along with a few my sister has and do this up right. I also noticed that I need to take them in the black and white setting. With the regular color setting, even though they are drawn with graphite pencil, you can see color pixels. Some of the detail is lost when taking a picture too. It all looks a little blurry. This may be due to the fact that I am doing something wrong when taking the picture. Maybe I should get the manual out and see what it says. But for now, I am posting a few of my graphite pencil portraits.

LOST...

Last evening I started a commissioned dog portrait, and because I need to have something to both watch and listen to while I draw, I was looking for something good, that I had already seen, because I won't be paying a lot of attention. It took me longer to decide on something to watch than it did to do everything I do when I start a portrait.
I looked on Hulu, I looked on Netflix, I looked at my DVD's, I went back and looked at Hulu again, then I ended up back on Netflix. (I am not joking)
What did I choose???? LOST! I thought I'd start at the very beginning, because it's a very good place to be, and knowing how it finally ends, I think it will be fun to try and catch all the hints that J.J. Abrams and Jeffrey Lieber give us. No matter how many times I watch this show, I do not get tired of it. I only wish they had those little cheater comments at the bottom of the screen so I could actually catch all the hints they throw at us.
I'm sooo excited. The only other show that I find I can watch over and over is CSI, because that is just beyond words (for me at least)
Oh yeah, the portrait is looking good too!